Learn to stop sabotaging myself

I'm stuck here most of the day, listening to other people talk about nothing, just whining about day to day personal stuff. I smile and listen, trying not to take it in (i'm a fixer). It's the middle of the night and I can't sleep, trying to find time to work on me, just me. But it seems that others have had the same idea, but they also want to talk. Not to me but at me.

I hurt myself more than anyone else ever could. Not to say they haven't, and not to say that I don't know that this is at least half my problem. But why rehash. I am writing this from a shelter. That says about everything. I was doing better than I had for a long time. And then, once again, I screwed it all up.