plethora

I feel like I am coming out of a cloud, that wanting to work on myself has made me want to work outwardly as well, beyond my family and I. 

My husband just told me of another couple who are in similar circumstances to us. He has the same hereditary illness that my husband has. He is also in research for this disease. He and his wife have been trying to have children through the same process that we did IVF. They have tried three rounds of pre-genetic diagnosis (PGD), where the mutant gene is singled out at an early cell divide. There is a 50/50 chance that each fertilized egg will have it. I know what this process is like for her, the emotional up and down, the bodily changes, the fatigue, I did it and it is not very fun.  I don't know why it worked for us the first time. I even joked with my husband that I was only getting pregnant once so we'd better have twins, and we did. We've had so much media coverage about our "plight", yes it is unfortunate about this disease but why can't this couple have what we have?

It makes me realize more and more that we/ I am no more special than the next person, we all have our uniqueness' and how do I use mine to contribute? My husband is contributing to research to finding a cure for this disease. I want to do something with my art, but what? I have so many scattered ideas about it but I don't know to get out there. The work that I am doing has been inspired by my children and our family "plight". It has taken on a very fragile form, that I liken to cells, does any one have any suggestions?