planting seeds

The month of February is coming to a close, however I am inspired to open up. Writing this blog has been good practice for me and a way to stay on track and actually do something about the resolution I set out at the beginning. The goals I gave myself are life time goals and I will go forward and work on them for life.

This year I went back to school after a two year hiatus to complete where I left off because a difficult pregnancy (I was on bed rest in hospital for 3 months and unable to complete my year). Through school I have reclaimed a little piece of me that I thought got buried in motherhood. I now know with work, that part doesn't have to be like that. I can still be an artist. I even have some one interested in selling my work in california (of all places, I think they have a very BC coast feel to them. I call them nests but they very well could be eggs, pods, seeds etc.).

If I had been a casual observer of me, I would have assumed that this woman was depressed and I recognized that yes I was constantly fighting that battle. I honestly didn't know making a resolution would change the way I felt or motivate me to be a better person. I was even hesitant of doing so. The second part of my resolution was to be the best mum I could/can be and one can not do that if they are always wanting more of the other things. I am so lucky to have these babies, some people try so hard to go through a similar process as my husband and I did and are unsuccessful, even after 2 or 3 tries. The best thing I can do for my babies is to be the best possible example. We are part of a larger community and being active in it is  will enrich my life as well as theirs.

I am taking better physical care of myself, that was some what of a side goal but I threw it in there as a motivation. I have always believed that more exercise means more energy and happier outlook.

I am adopting the philosophy of looking at what I have and who I am right now and how can I change that to make my tomorrow better? This is a great start to my year.