Timing is something

Just noticing a few posts on here about getting up earlier. I notice even if I do wake up early (I'm pretty content calling anything before 8am 'early'), I feel a little out of it - like, "what the hell am I gonna do now? Dear 7:16am, I am a stranger to your world." It's led me to consider changing how I regard the time-of-day altogether.

I've been contemplating the way I (really don't like to) schedule meetings or appointments. My days are busy and full without a doubt, but the life I've created is such that the majority of what makes up the days is more spontaneous than planned or slotted in to specific times. I squirm like a seven-year-old at the dentist when I'm required to schedule things, and the question on my mind - "Is there anything reason I need to keep that open? Yes, that entire bloody day, you never know okay?" Alright. The dysfunction is becoming apparent.

I tend to basically ignore time altogether, and while some of the popular new-age thinking might offer it's glazed-eyed approval of this attitude, there is a stagnancy of life that can result from an overemphasis on 'go with the flow'. A deeper truth suggests an appropriate focus on both spontaneity and planning; envisioning goals and letting go of control; function and flow.

Seems to come down to one's purpose and the conceptions around checking in on how the actions of a day reflect the clearest sense of one's calling, allowing for the unexpected as well as the always-evolving and deepening realizations of that purpose and intention..something else where I feel changes occurring.

So, I'm going to get myself a watch - reacquaint myself with the hours in a day. The watch is also a part of honouring recent events in my life that have been very difficult, but have also deeply inspired me to make some significant changes around intentions for living my life fully, giving all that I am. Fearlessly and right now.