sometimes life crashes into you

i've been waiting for a clear path
waiting for life to show me how or where to be
to help my mom get through this cancer

i've tumbled through the last weeks - angry
and trying to leave myself.....something,
some part of a life I can come back to - or hold on to

i've done this before 
in the old days i have  let it all go
and then tried to figure out how everything fit together again,  
like a giant jigsaw puzzle that has been dumped over
when there was just that last section to complete
I just keep breathing
in and out
and wait for the angels to whisper a plan