Dissapointment and Dread

I have to say that I am a little disappointed at  how slowly the training is coming along. The last 2 runs have been awful and it's taken everything in me to not just quit and go home. Or quit and lie on the side of the road until someone came and got me.  When I first started running a few years ago, it was hard and then there was a wonderfully brilliant turning point where it became easy and fun and I felt like I could run for hours. Now I seem to have sunk back below that threshold and nothing I do is making me progress.

 To add insult to injury, I've been "in training" for weeks now and have not lost even 1pound! NOT ONE. That is just seriously disheartening to know you've been lugging yourself around the seawall in the hot sun for nothing. Leanne tells me it's because I'm building muscle and muscle weighs more than fat, but my calves really don't need to be any bigger than they are. What I need is a flat stomach.

So this is a bad week. I'm hoping it will get better - and fast - because the Scotiabank Half-Marathon is coming up on June 24th and I was really hoping to do OK in it.