My first epiphany!
Okay, so my big change is going to be to put my relationships with loved ones first right? The new motto is "all you need is love", meaning investing time in relationships and not accomplishments, yes? (Sorry for the redundancy, I just need repetition to drive things home.)
This week I've had some opportunities to shift things around a little!
First off, last week I thought maybe I would start a little mini-business. I was going to open an Etsy shop. Etsy, for those of you who don't know, is a website that lets people sell their handmade wares, very popular amongst DIY-types. The start-up fee is basically zero, so I thought, what could I lose? Well, it turns out lots and lots of time. I made a couple of the little stuffed monsters I wanted to sell, and I thought I could whip them up pretty quickly, but it turns out it takes me quite a lot of alone-with-the-DVD-player time to complete one lil' monster. It also turns out it costs me a fair amount of mental space. I got stressed pretty quickly about whether or not I was making enough, if they were good enough to sell, how I could make them faster, and so on. Yeesh! This was not very fitting with my new change!
So, I've decided to change my attitude from "I'll find a way to cram in the time to do all this on top of all my work and maybe still seeing friends" to one that lets me put the project on hold. Maybe later I'll do it, but for now I'm going to spend the time I would have spent sitting alone and sewing with people that matter to me.
I organized a potluck with some close friends this week, as well as weekly gatherings to enjoy a pint at our neighbourhood pub and enjoy each other's company. This feels much better to me than all that other stress I was going to have!
Maybe instead of selling those little monsters I've made, I'll give them as gifts during some of this hanging out time! I love gift-giving as a way of showing I care about someone.
Oh, and I just had a thought! When I do restart this Etsy shop project, instead of sitting around my house by myself with my TV sewing, I can have sewing/crafting parties! That way I can combine a little productivity with a lot of friendship and love! Because one thing that I need to keep in mind is that making relationships a priority does not mean abandoning work and projects that are also fulfilling. It just means balance. Aaaaaah... *sigh* ... balance.
Okay, that's all for today. Stay tuned for my other epiphanies. :)
